But things aren't really all that great for me right now. I'm using all my strength to stave off depression, 'bad' thoughts, and trying to keep my head above water.
I've always been a bit reticent to ask for help. Having been brought up with the adage 'you're big enough and ugly enough to help yourself lad', this is how I've tended to cope. And I've always been embarrassed to directly ask for what I want.
This has all changed now, though. I literally have nothing left to be embarrassed about. I don't have the luxury any more of feeling stupid or crazy for even thinking anyone in the world would want to help me make a success of my creative endeavour.
I published a little novel last year, my first. And I'm not saying it's a game changer or 'one of the most important LGBTI novels of our times' (thank you Bridget Jones). But, you know, it is a decent story, really, with a great setting - Europe for goodness sake - and a fab 'soundtrack' that the main character has with him on his travels.
There are some great characters too - Madame Gilbert is a stand out favourite. And an LGBTI storyline - definitely bang on trend, some would say.
But, I've exhausted nearly all my limited cash and resources trying to encourage people to read it. It's been a mountain to climb, because I've had no backing from publishers or agents.
As if this wasn't enough of a pipe dream, I really would love to see it made into a film. It's set mostly in the 1980s, so there's loads of nostalgia factor; it takes readers to some of Europe's most glamorous locations - Paris, Barcelona, Alicante & Benidorm (What?), Nice, Cannes, Monte Carlo and Venice.
So I figured this has to be a director's and actors' dream project. And yes also a logistical challenge for location managers, but, hey, details.
Which is why, this author, with nothing really left to lose, is writing to some of the world's best directors asking if they would be interested. I mean who do I think I am?
So here is my first: Brad Anderson, Hollywood director with credits like The Machinist and TransSiberian. He is on record as saying he would love to make any film set on a train. Well Brad, mine is set on a train, told from a train and the character is on-and-off them all throughout the story.
This is what I wrote to Brad. Do you think he'll ever see it or get back to me?
If he does, I'll let you know:
|My email to Brad Anderson. Will he come on the journey?|